1 month

1 month ago i had my third baby and very well my last

it seems like forever ago

to the point that i think that he should be bigger, or maybe i just think too much about the cf and the fact that most infants with cf are small and grow slow

he is not

he is a month today

birth weight was 7lbs 12 oz

1 week old was 7lbs 2 oz

2 weeks 7lbs 7oz

3 weeks 8lbs 1oz

this week monday(which was 8 days after the 8lbs 1oz measure) was 8lbs 14oz

he gained a little more than twice what the doctors were hoping he would gain

he is awesome

one month and i am done being able to pump

Ronan takes two bottles a day with his vitamins and saline solution

up until a couple of days ago i could pump and then top up after and all was good and a miracle

not anymore

with my other kids i could never pump at all and i got over it quick

i am not a cuddly person and nursing is something that i don't mind but don't mind to give up either

i never have been able to nurse past 6 months

Ronan needs the best head start to a great immune system as possible and nursing is one of the best ways to give it a good start

i feel like i am letting him down, i know it sounds crazy but it is the way i think

his stomach gets bothered more with the formula also so i am really hoping his weight gain continues and that he can digest formula as easily as breast milk

i am not done nursing, i will continue, but i can sense the decent to formula happening

on a different note

Ronan rolled over today from he tummy to his back...TWICE.

it is crazy but he is strong

he is such a good baby.

on a totally different note again

Elias has been sick for 5 days now.

diarrhea and vomit

please pray for healing

I don't think he or I can handle much more.